My first psychotic break was triggered by a series of events culminating in me seeing a dead deer lying in a small body of water.
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On Wednesday, my boyfriend and I went to see Frozen 2.
Continue readingLiquid Sanity
I get an injection of Abilify, an antipsychotic medication, every three weeks.
Continue readingOne Day at a Time
I have a love-hate relationship with IOP.
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Psychosis is believing my worst thoughts, my own interior monologue taking on a life of its own, physical sensations that don’t line up with reality, fears bigger than the moon, and logic that is completely inexplicable to anyone else.
Continue readingSmall Steps Forward
I had a performance evaluation at work today.
Continue readingMed Management
I’ve been on Clozapine for about a week, going up on the dosage as my doctor had instructed, when things took a for the worse. I started running a fever, my body ached, I had chills, and I wasn’t making sense. When my mom woke me up this morning, I had a temperature of 104, and irately told her, “Avocados!” when she asked me if I knew where I was.
Continue readingMonsters, Men, and Modern-Day Magic
I was never sure if the lightbulb was a magical amulet or just something I needed to take to Lowe’s so I could find a match for the burnt-out fixture in my bedroom. Once I put it in my purse, I felt very sure that it must never leave my possession.
Continue readingSharpies, St. Augustine, & My Sanity
This morning, I woke to find the words “KILL ME” and “RAPE MEAT” written in Sharpie on my chest.
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