I am pretty much a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl.
But I do like to feel pretty sometimes. When I feel better about myself, I dress more nicely, do my hair, and put on makeup.
The mirror is not exactly my best friend. I’ve been known to hurl insults at my reflection. Lately though, I’m starting to make peace with my appearance. Today I took a huge step and bought a bikini.
I haven’t worn a bikini in years. I hate trying on swimsuits. They’re tight and revealing, my least favorite combination. But you know what? I live in the sunshine state, about ten minutes from the beach. And I deserve to go to the beach!
Here I am in my new bikini! It’s hard to find one that fits my top half, but this one is pretty close to the right size. And I like the high-waisted bottoms because they cover my appendectomy scar. I’m also not super confident with my tummy, so I like these because they provide a little more coverage. I’m so excited to go to the beach or the pool!
I am beginning to think I may not be as gay as I once thought I was. That’s a tough thing for me to admit, considering I’ve been out and proud for quite a while now, and three of my tattoos are gay pride themed.
Recently, I went on a first date with a very nice guy I met online. He’s charming and handsome, and he makes me smile. We got coffee and brunch and just talked. My initial impression of him was that he is very smart, funny, and sweet.
He is okay with me needing to take things very slowly. He says he wants me to feel safe and comfortable with him. How very different from my previous male companions! I am not sure where this will lead, but I am excited to find out. We made plans to go swimming this weekend, and to go to karaoke night on Monday.
I have been writing happy poetry again. Life is pretty good sometimes.